Tuesday, June 27, 2006

observations...

I visited my blog tonight only to find that the banner is missing. I don't usually think about it unless something isn't working, but what if one day I woke up and my blog was gone? Poof! That would be sad, indeed. So to guard against such significant loss I occasionally back up what I've written in Word documents. What surprises me most is that I've written 70 pages worth of material since mid-April. Good or not--that's a lot of words.

On another note, I went to my studio today to start a new painting. It was when I looked at the bare canvas that I realized that I don't actually have the skill to paint the images in my head. Some days I am amazed by just how much I have to learn. I never started the painting. Instead, I taped down a piece of paper, made doodles in black ink and then covered it in oil pastel, smearing it around until I felt my body finally relax.

The master piece will have to wait--I'm in transition--a weird state of being between trying to figure it all out and letting it go.

I'll go back tomorrow.

5 comments:

deirdre said...

I've begun to have a small little fear that one day my blog may disappear too. I print out everything and save it in Word as well. It's astounding when I look at the growing stack of paper. I'm sure you'll get back to painting more after the move. Holy smokes, your whole life is upside down, I'm impressed that you got to the studio at all.

gkgirl said...

sheesh.
i hadn't thought that
someday my blog
could just disappear.

ack.

if you will excuse me,
i think i have some
backing up to do...

:)

bee said...

i love that: "a weird space between figuring it out and letting it go."

wow, can i relate. i think the universe puts up more resistance the more you should let go.

if my blog disappeared tomorrow - i think i'd be okay with that. i've never thought about it disappearing...

erin said...

i'm having a similar problem with writing right now. i know what i want to do, but can't begin to figure out how. at a certain point, plowing ahead just doesn't do it. so i do what you did- pick something fun, something soothing, something that i can handle, and let it rip. one of these days, you'll know how to begin...

paris parfait said...

Master works can take a long time and you're right to do a little at a time and go back to it. Sometimes one can take only small steps - other days, the big leap! Good point about backing up the blog docs. I must do that.