Monday, December 05, 2005

I think I might have even missed my office.

It feels like a long time since I've been here. But that's not true. It's just that it's been a long time since I've been in here, not for office hours, but with the intention of getting something done. The door is shut, I have a latte at my side, a nice hot bowl of chili for when I get hungry, a stack of books, papers to grade. This place feels like the most organized and least distracting space available--so here I am.

Until now I've been avoiding my office except for when I needed to be here. I think I over used and abused the space last year with all those 12 even 14 hour days. Looking back I can honestly say: Last year sucked. Maybe all that horrible stressed out energy has finally dissipated from these windowless walls. It actually, I'll admit, feels good to be back.

I spent almost the entire morning outside taking care of my sick pooch and searching for a Christmas tree. And at the moment I am content to sit in this warm, dark office listening to a Christmas CD made by my husband (an early present).

Life feels fine. Things are about to get done.


Renee said...

Dear Jessie:
what is wrong with your dog, is he ok now? Yes, obviously he is or you wouldn't be so content.

Jessie said...

She's got the doopy-doos if ya know what I mean. She has for the last 3 days. Someone told me that feeding them yogurt helps. It eats up the bad bacteria. I'm not too worried, but I feel bad. My little wolfie has a stomach of steel and this is the VERY first time I've ever seen her so miserable. Poor girl. I wish it would warm up--then at least she'd be more comfortable. In the meantime I give her lots of love. She's got PLENTY of energy so it must not be too bad.

tara dawn said...

Glad to hear you've found a place that can offer you warmth and peace. I hope your pooch can find her own comfort soon as well.