Friday, August 29, 2008

I could tell you...

Well, the past week has been a time of tears and healing. It has also been a time of laughter and friendship. I notice that, unless I write here every day (which rarely seems to happen anymore), I never know where to hop back on board.

I could tell you that I have a puppy asleep at my feet. I call her my "Magic Ella Bean" because she has brought magic into my life and reminds me of a deliciously black French roasted coffee bean.

I could tell you about how happy I am to be alive and living a life that feels so true to me.

I could tell you how I'm looking forward to going out for a lunch of chai and Nepalese food with the most wonderful friend in the world.

I could tell you that my life has been swallowed whole by dogs and my work.

I could tell you about the photo shoot I had with a singing dog and how--WOW--that dog could really sing! Deep howls, held in tune with the harmonica, causing so much happiness to rise up from my center that it was hard to hold the camera steady!

I could tell you about all the ways that the Universe has conspired to help me to do what I'm doing and how amazing I think it is when people I've just met offer to help me to the extent that they do.

I could tell you about how hungry I am to travel north and to sit in the silence of the woods.

I could tell you about how sweet it is to watch Ella and Louie snuggle and how physically, emotionally, and mentally connected they are every second of the day.

I could tell you how happy Anu is to have me back again now that the "young dogs" can entertain themselves.

I could tell you about the porcelain cup I am drinking my coffee out of and how the gold edging catches the cool morning light, adding a bit of unexpected elegance to my day.

I could tell you about how I've decided to dream larger than life...because over and over again I am learning that life is as good as we allow it to be.

I could tell you about my aunt and how I felt her presence in the warmth of the sunshine when we walked out of the church after her funeral. She has become sunshine particles and birds and all sorts of things. She is so completely with me. I notice her often and feel a swell of emotion every time.

I could tell you about Being Brave and how grateful I am that this project has become a part of my life.

I could tell you about how good it felt to read my first glossy feature article and how happy I am with the way that Marni Wedin crafted our interview into an article (Thank you, Marni!).

There's so much I could tell you. But the question, once again, is where should I begin?

~

15 comments:

kj said...

clap, clap, clap
:)

megg said...

Oh, Jessie - your post has made me dissolve into tears -

LOVE to you my dear friend - please keep dreaming BIG because you deserve the most amazing things that the universe can possibly send your way - ALL OF THEM!!!

I've missed you!

xo

Samosas for One said...

Whenever I read your posts describing a scene I feel like I can actually see it! What a lovely post filled with so much heart, love, emotion, beauty, and peace.

daisies said...

"I could tell you about how I've decided to dream larger than life...because over and over again I am learning that life is as good as we allow it to be."

oh yes absolutely oh yes :) beautiful beautiful ... xo

Olivia said...

I am so very, very happy for you, Jessie. I send you my love over the miles, Much Love, O

teaworthy said...

Beautiful post.

andie said...

Yeah! Yeah for happiness, pure joy, love and LIFE!! You inspire me so deeply Jessie. I feel blessed to "know" you.
Thank you.
a.

Jan said...

Oh my...the dogs, your art, it all just registered w/ me: I just now posted a comment on your 7/8/08 Be Brave post and now I must tell you, Jessie, that the cousin I mentioned had 5 dogs, was involved in whippet rescue, and was just beginning to develop a sideline to her human portrait bus. and photograph dogs. The work she did was wonderful and so promising.And she was fearless in living her life.

Also, you live in the area where one of my best friends lives; love that, too! I had to stop reading and post this--I'll come back and catch up when it's not so late for me.

I want a dog!

Jan said...

p.s. don't tell my cat that I want a dog, OK?

thanks. :-)

Amber said...

I totally get this. I don't know where to start either, because I have been away so much. But this is very well done and said.

"I could tell you about how I've decided to dream larger than life...because over and over again I am learning that life is as good as we allow it to be."--

Thank you. This was for me, you just didn't know it.

ox :)

Attaining Creativity said...

keep dreaming, keep feeling, keep drawing, and keep being brave.

Wonderful, sweet post entry!

Patry Francis said...

That sure is some wonderful telling. Thanks for lifting me up and making me think of singing dogs and Nepalese food. xo

recklesslydreaming said...

i love love that your dogs are named after jazz greats, however (un)intentionally.

this makes me smile, sweetpea. i don't comment much at the moment, but i'm always reading...i guess it's how you say with blogging, i never know when/how to jump back in.

your happiness is lovely. :)

Violet said...

thank you for telling =)

Kel said...

"I could tell you about how I've decided to dream larger than life...because over and over again I am learning that life is as good as we allow it to be."
Yes! You said it - may living bravely enough to remember this be an ongoing project for us all. Thank you!