Tuesday, June 24, 2008

love lives here.

I feel like writing this morning. I don't even know what about...but I do know that my coffee tastes especially good today and the sun is shining and it is already warm out even though it is still early.

I also want to tell you that there has been some good news. My aunt was going to be sent home from the hospital, but it seems that there is a bit of a MIRACLE in progress! They did another bone biopsy and found that something good is happening with her cells. The bone marrow transplant seems to be taking hold! I don't really feel like going into a complete description of her leukemia and how it progresses or goes into remission--but the point is that something WONDERFUL is happening! And I can't help but believe that it is HER who is making it happen.


Granted, there are still a lot of unknowns and risks and dangers ahead...but, dang! Sometimes I am blown away by the power of mind/body/spirit. Miracles have the ability defy explanation. And miracles, I'm coming to believe, are little more than energy in action.

I guess that's why I came here today...to tell you that. I'm excited by life and all that we are capable of manifesting.

These days, V. and I are waiting to see if we can get funding for a house. It's a nerve-racking experience, but I am making my best attempts at keeping my energy focused in positive directions. Yesterday, while waiting for the loan officer to call back, instead of letting anxiety tie my stomach in knots, I worked on a collage of the home that V. and I are interested in. I sang softly to myself a made-up song about our new life in that home. Louie and the cats loved it--all three of them wandered and rubbed up against my legs as I worked. Singing is breathing--and it helped immensely to calm my mind.

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If my aunt can will herself back into health, I see no reason that I can't will a house into our lives...or anything else for that matter. Shortly after finishing the collage the phone rang. There was a part of me that braced myself for bad news, but even though we don't have a definite answer yet, I was elated to hear that there is hope!

Who knows what will happen...all I know is that my life has involved a lot of living and breathing and painting lately. It has involved a lot of friendship and learning and inspiration.

When I imagine Vinny's and my future home, I imagine a sign above the door that says "love lives here." The sign is eclectically hand-made. Well, everything about the house is a bit eclectic. I imagine a garden with lots of vining vegetables--string beans, sweet peas, zucchini, pumpkins. I imagine tomatoe plants that grow tall and heavy with plump fruit. I imagine a secret garden where there are a plethora of ferns, moonflowers, echinacea and other flowering wonders. I imagine walking out into that yard every morning with a cup of coffee and my journal-- a place where I start my day without interruptions. I imagine an art studio tucked under the trees--that is, the sort of studio that makes me drool with happiness!

I imagine enchantment. And a family made of a husband and dogs and maybe even babies.

I imagine a place where love lives.



Anu said...

Jessie: This is uplifting news to hear about your aunt. Thank you for sharing it.

And your house sounds wonderful as well. Manifest it woman!


Sharon said...

Very promising news about your aunt!

Your dream home sounds great...I wish you all the best. Love the motto for the front door!!!

Melba said...

Beautiful collage.
I know that house will be yours soon!!!
Never forget ~You are a powerful woman!!
Love you!

Leah said...

love the house collage!

my kitties love it when i sing too. :-)

great news about your aunt!!!

Olivia said...

I love the title of your blog post, Jessie. I am so glad to hear the good news about your aunt. Much love, O

Deirdre said...

I'll keep my fingers crossed for you.

Glad to hear your Aunt is doing well.

Connie said...

Keep that lovely vision of what your home will be like in your heart and in your head, and I promise, my friend...it will happen. I promise.

I had a tear in my eye imagining the sign above your door--I love it!

Happy to hear good news about your aunt.

Peace & Love.

Sacred Suzie said...

What a beautiful post and that collage is stunning! I really hope that you are able to get funding for that wonderful eclectic home.

Maybe one day we can go hiking together! :) Wouldn't that be great?

Paula - Buenos Aires said...

Wishing you happiness wherever you put that sign up. :)

kj said...

speechlessly i simply say there is a reason you are somehow in my life. and speechlessly i say thank you.


Anonymous said...

Jessie, I am thrilled about your aunt! This post was gorgeous as always. So much to say...I'll call soon. xo, M

megg said...

all good things!!! You fill up my heart just knowing you are there. Love to you and your family and your aunt - I can't WAIT to walk under that sign!!

LOVE YOU my friend!!!


Tammy said...

(((Jessie))) This is all such wonderful news. I believe the mind is a very powerful tool. I wish you luck! XXOO

bLu eYd YoGi said...

wow! LOVE your writing~ sounds like a wonderful place~ i hope u get it`