Sunday, September 30, 2007

labyrinth walking...

I'd like to say that I did something hugely scary today, but the scariest thing I did was gather the information I need to write my cover letters. I worked all day and then went over to my sister's with V. to enjoy some desert. It was a nice day filled with soft sounding rain drops and good conversation, but I am amazed by how physically/mentally/emotionally exhausting this week has been. I mean, it's only the forth day and I feel like I've been put through a meat tenderizer. I'm kind of amazed by how long its taken me to get to this point of readiness, but I fully accept that everything up until this point has been part of the learning process.

11 comments:

Olivia said...

Gosh, Jessie, I know the feeling, and I've been taking baby steps. It is hugely different than other projects I've taken on because it's all stuff that a part of me really doesn't want to do because I'm so SCARED! But it is good, even if it isn't fun yet :) Love, O

Loralee Choate said...

Ok, so here is my opinion...I think that if you are doing something ginormously scary it should cover more than one flippn' day!

I mean, really...I think that something like "Instead of your normal black or white top, buy a color that you love but are too scared to wear" is satisfactory for doing something scary for the day.

"Apply for very scary PhD program you have been eying for 3 years" should, um, count for more than that, you know???

Leah said...

yeah, i think baby steps are super important. so no matter how scary it might be, making forward progress in the direction of what scares you is quite impressive!! xo

Elizabeth said...

Hi Jessie. Baby steps and be gentle on yourself.
I've just committed to a drawing a day for one month, part of "The Big Draw" (see blog)... I shall focus on one day at a time to get me through.

Vedrana M. said...

it's just wonderful what you started, amazing and i wish you lot of great moments :) step by step, xoxo

p.s. i was thinking about you yesterday...

Amber said...

I think you are doing just fine in this. I am impressed. And also feeling a little pinch telling me to listen to what you say.

:)

Melba said...

Jessie,
You inspire me so much!
You help me expand.
I love that we are "being brave" together!
:)
I know you can do anything you set your mind too~and wow is the universe every waiting for you to allow!
Your snake dream blew my mind. My dreams have been interrupted lately~I wake up because Ethan or Maggie has called me.
Tonight before I sleep I will ask for a sign. I am not sure what or what for, but I know that dreams are powerful and can help me.

XO,
Melba

Maddie said...

Jessie - I am so excited for you -
this is just the most
inspiring little brave group
of people flowing along waving
our little flag banners:)

which I know you are working on:)

I love the sound of raindrops -
like little poetic zen murmurs...

(hgus)

Spiky Zora Jones said...

Oh Jessie...the sound of rain drops is one of my favorite sounds. It calms me and inspires me for growth.

Lately I feel as if I'm shuffling unfinished projects...as if I don't want to see them end.

It's always wonderul to read your blog Jessie. I thought of you as I spoke with my brother on the phone this past weekend...His name is Jessie too.

Jen said...

contemplating doing one "scary" thing a day...really scared me!
but this goal and proactive push is very inspiring...the steps to the action step sometimes are the hardest I think...

exhausting...it is the thing that shows that sometimes our desire and readiness to do more makes the possibility for doing and doing and being tired from it...it is hard to keep walking when we want to get there soon..

sounds like you needed a day to rest and recharge....these kind of efforts are work...takes energy...recharging is so important. that said, i could be doing that now;-)

swampgrrl said...

hey girl ...
just catching up on your life/blog after a dry spell ...

i love practicing fearlessness. there's nothing so exhilarating as touching the most brave parts of ourselves.

i'll leave you with a mary oliver snippet ...

"when the thumb of fear lifts, we are so alive."