Tuesday, November 28, 2006

weather.

i keep reading blogs about being snowed in. snow, snow, snow. i'm jealous.

i live in minnesota and all i woke up to this morning is the strangeness of thunder and lightening. lots of rain, but no snow. it's nearly december and there's a very large part of me that keeps thinking: please snow, please snow, please snow....

because all this brown is starting to get depressing. i don't even enjoy the crunch of leaves anymore. and not having snow makes me miss home. i don't want to miss home. so i guess it's a good thing that there isn't snow yet there either because, if there was, i would want to move back. there are things i miss about bemidji immensely. but i'm also glad i'm gone. i needed to move away--my life there was beginning to feel steeped in too much pain. i needed a chance to start over.

but a winter without snow? i can't even stand the thought of such seasonal monotony.

in bemidji, i hear the small lakes have frozen over and the big ones will soon. i can't explain this affinity i have with ice and snow and cold weather. maybe it is because i was born a winter baby. maybe it's because it gives me room to breath. maybe it's because that is what my molecules are made of.

all i do know is that i hope that big cloud of snow keeps moving east and doesn't stop until it gets here...because i want to wake up tomorrow morning, look out the window, and see change. i want to see something that i can call home.

8 comments:

deirdre said...

Now you've made me shiver. We had frost this morning. And that's cold enough for this California girl. I'm such a wimp.

Anonymous said...

oh, you're homesick. that SUCKS. don't worry, sweetie, snow will be here soon.

p.s. coffee tastes so much better when i'm drinking it in your mug...thank you. (hug)

Ces said...

For someone like you whose favorite weather is a blizzard - let it snow :-)

Jen(nifer) said...

I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW!

I woke up this morning here in Buffalo, NY to the temp being 59 degrees.

Ridiculous! I HATE IT!

Spiky Zora Jones said...

Snow...last it snowed here was January 1999 and it was only one day of snow. Eh, but this is California. Hope you get snow soon.

gkgirl said...

i know we will have snow
soon enough here
so i'm not bothered by
the current lack of it...
usually we get more than enough.

sorry to hear that you
are feeling homesick though...
:(

Vesper said...

i'm from north dakota so i grew up with tonnes of snow. now in vancouver we hardly ever get snow, and it's odd to be snowed in. in a good way. the mountains look amazing, the streets and trees and houses look amazing. i'm loving it, while the city freaks out. kinda makes me laugh at all the mass hysteria.

kj said...

she quietly said to no one in particular: "i like warm weather in december....until christmas"