Hereby begins the weekend.

Since today is Saturday, I am considering myself somewhat forced to put the job hunt on hold until Monday. Oh, sweet weekend. I felt a wave of relaxation wash over me after returning home last night after a full day of "selling myself" and running errands. I've given it my all this week and feel good about what I've done or not done. I have a new job hunting tactic and it's called "Being Real." Frankly, it is incredibly liberating to be in a position where I feel like I can do that (a position within myself, that is) and, oddly enough, I've never had so much fun trying to get someone to hire me--not to mention, I've met some very cool people in the process. It felt good to be honest with myself and honest with the people that I might work for. I'm also getting better at listening to what my gut instincts tell me. If a place doesn't feel right or have good vibes, then I leave it at that--because unless I get desperate, I don't want to give my energy to a negative work environment. I'm not desperate yet.

As I drove from one part of town to another, with the windows down, and listening to more good music, I began to visualize my heart opening up and my ribcage expanding open, open, open. I didn't mean to, it just happened. I smiled because I feel the molecules of my life shifting and taking on another shape. While the traffic moved at normal speeds and lights changed at expected intervals, I felt my world begin to knit itself into a different outcome. Sun sparkle bounced off of Lake Calhoun and the cars in front of me...

...and I have a good feeling. That's all I know.