Saturday, August 12, 2006

Hereby begins the weekend.

Since today is Saturday, I am considering myself somewhat forced to put the job hunt on hold until Monday. Oh, sweet weekend. I felt a wave of relaxation wash over me after returning home last night after a full day of "selling myself" and running errands. I've given it my all this week and feel good about what I've done or not done. I have a new job hunting tactic and it's called "Being Real." Frankly, it is incredibly liberating to be in a position where I feel like I can do that (a position within myself, that is) and, oddly enough, I've never had so much fun trying to get someone to hire me--not to mention, I've met some very cool people in the process. It felt good to be honest with myself and honest with the people that I might work for. I'm also getting better at listening to what my gut instincts tell me. If a place doesn't feel right or have good vibes, then I leave it at that--because unless I get desperate, I don't want to give my energy to a negative work environment. I'm not desperate yet.

As I drove from one part of town to another, with the windows down, and listening to more good music, I began to visualize my heart opening up and my ribcage expanding open, open, open. I didn't mean to, it just happened. I smiled because I feel the molecules of my life shifting and taking on another shape. While the traffic moved at normal speeds and lights changed at expected intervals, I felt my world begin to knit itself into a different outcome. Sun sparkle bounced off of Lake Calhoun and the cars in front of me...

...and I have a good feeling. That's all I know.

10 comments:

kj said...

I felt my world begin to knit itself into a different outcome

jessie, this is a beautiful image.

being real and relaxed will win the job for you. sometimes the "clients" i work with choose the top 10 or 20 empoyers they are interested in and arrange an "informational interview"--about half of the employers you ask will agree to meet with you informally. and that often gets you where you want to be....

best of luck. thanks for sharing your world.

kj

paris parfait said...

Beautiful - "...felt my world begin to knit itself into a different outcome." It will happen; have faith, Jessie! Everything is falling into place, bit by bit.

bee said...

"watching" you undergo this transition is truly inspiring, jessie. i'm so happy that your life is becoming more and more the perfect fit for you.

megg said...

I'm so filled up with excitement for you adn what you are doing and where you are going and how you are feeling - YAY!! I know.. KNOW you will find the right job for you right now - just keep on listening to those molecules! ;) xoox

melba said...

Hi Jessie,
It was great catching up with you this morning while drinking tea (it is early and I didn't want to wake everyone up grinding the coffee beans)

I am glad you like your new home and that you are so close to your family. This place seems to be perfect for you.

Retail is tough... after spending 15 years in it and my husband still in it I know. I always wanted to work in a bookstore instead of clothing, but I heard at big bookstores it is more about the retail/management stuff than your love of books. I am not saying this to discourage you...it is just if you have never worked in a retail environment it can be... depleting (at least for me it was).
Maybe you have worked in big box retail and know all this, but
if you have any questions about it let me know.

XO,
Melba

Elizabeth said...

You captured here a feeling I know well -- when, for no particular reason and in spite of evidence to the contrary, you just know the pieces of your life are about to fall together in some amazing way!

Best to you!!

Belle said...

Hi Jessie,

It feels so good to be happy!

You are spreading the cheer.

ruby said...

hey jessie, it's so great to see what a healthy and insirational approach you're taking to the job hunt/new move! i really think that the best way to get what we want (job, partner, or whatever) is to be authentic...life is so rich and there is so much to be experienced that i certainly don't want to have to worry (too much) about keeping up appearances! hugs...

Tammy said...

Superb images of a chick that has got it going on...yeah!

swampgrrl said...

i love this post. being authentic in a job interview is so exciting to me. i have yet to do it. how is it working for you? are you scared? i love how you describe listening to your gut when you are in a place and being deliberate about where you place your energy.
can't wait to hear what comes up.