Saturday, February 18, 2006

brief moments of thought...

There are moments in the day when I think to myself: Yes--I can do this! Last night was slightly productive. I went to bed looking forward to today and woke up still feeling optimistic. But it is now after 8 (pm) and let's face it...I'm lacking all sense of reality. Because there are these other moments, like now, when I think to myself: I'm f#%*ed! It's impossible! On a daily basis I find myself stripped naked of time. Meanwhile, the knot in my stomach is growing. It is almost March.

It's my grandpa's birthday tomorrow. My grandma's throwing a birthday party for him, but they live two hours away. It's just another thing that gets in the way of everything else I should be doing. My grandpa's been sick lately. He might not be around next year.

Life does not wait. My other grandpa died 8 months ago. Life does not wait.

5 comments:

... said...

it really does not..i should know.
...i hope you make it to his bday.

tara dawn said...

Life certainly does not wait. Oh how I wish we could pause certain moments in time, whether it be to just revel in the moment or to allow us to accomplish more of these endless tasks we face. But alas, we all must realize...time does not stop, and life does not wait.
May we both continue to learn to embrace life, each and every moment of it.
I loved this post...Hope you are well. I've been missing you...
sending love, love, love
TD

Signora B. said...

Life goes by too fast and it seems to be ,at times,dictated by things that really can wait.
Do go and see your Grandfather,for his sake and yours.
The Things will be there ,always,
Loved Ones might not be.

eric said...

jessie....i think i'll call my grandma and grandpa now....

LoriLaurieLauri said...

I have those same exact thoughts every morning and every night! All day long, really. And the whole "it's just one more thing that gets in the way of what I should be doing"...I know exactly how you feel!