Wednesday, October 01, 2008

in search of sacred.

The Artist's Creed...



I watched this video on Connie's blog and felt it necessary to share. I've spent most of the day in a weird tumult of emotions--wanting to find my center, yet having a hard time doing so.

Yesterday I decided that it is time to head north. Ever since the geese started flying I've felt a deep magnetic pull towards the place I come from. I miss it there. I miss the trees, the fresh air, the stars, the sounds of loons and wolves. I feel like I have been running to keep up with something--what it is, I'm not even sure. I am becoming a shadow of myself. This running, it has depleted me. Today I don't remember who I am. I don't remember what I'm good for. I don't remember what I'm worth.

I've spent a lot of time today thinking about what it means to do the work I do. I've been thinking about how it necessitates a different kind of movement through the world. I've been thinking about how important it is that I find my pace...and allow it to empower me. How do I preserve the sacred space within me when everything else moves so much faster than my rate of creation?

I am looking forward to next week with my whole heart. I am in deep need of the time alone. This painting retreat, it will serve me well. It will be just me, my wolfie, and a car full of canvases. I am giving myself sacred space to create my own artist's creed. As I move into this new life I am finding it to be more important than ever. In the meantime, this one serves as a beautiful reminder.

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12 comments:

andie said...

Thank you for sharing that.

recklesslydreaming said...

i hear you.

i HEAR you.

i'm there with you. and here. sending my love. phone date when you get back?

Sacred Suzie said...

What a tremendous opportunity, to go north and paint. Beautiful. Fall is my travelling time. I love packing up and flying somewhere. This year it's Ontario to visit with my sisters. We need sacred space in the autumn, in all of our days but especially now. Enjoy the sacred adventure.

pERiWinKle said...

When you are there...don't paint something specific...just close your eyes...take the brush...and paint!

Ooohhh!!!! so excited for your time away! Enjoy every minute...xx

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Sharon said...

You are coming back to the North country at the right time. The fall colors are wonderful. Temperatures are still temperate enough to allow walks in the woods, along the lake, etc.

May you have a wonderful time renewing your spirit!

Jamie said...

Blessings to you in your sacred space, in your sacred time. Trust.

Karen said...

Your trip sounds wonderful. I hope it brings you all that you need.

Amber said...

I agree with A. Thank you for sharing that. Because you show us that even you who seems to be living the life of your dreams and potential-- also has "those" moments.

:)

Marilou said...

I am honored, grateful and inspired to be walking this journey with you. May you find your pace up north, .... i have no doubt that the stars and the beauty and wilderness of the north will speak to you .. i will be here waiting to hear all about it, and to support you in whatever way i can :)

i love you my friend...

Wayfaring Wanderer said...

I got a "This video is no longer available message"!?!? Maybe I'll try back.

cat said...

Thank you for this...such an inspiring and affirming creed- I loved it. Thanks to Jen Lemen on Blogher for posting the link to your blog!