Saturday, February 17, 2007

Day 1 of the next 12 weeks.

I slept late this morning...something that is relatively unheard of in the normal scheme of things. I got a full 11 hours of sleep and I think I needed it. Before I got up I was dreaming that I worked for a comical environmental-spoof game show. Just before waking up, the gorilla had thrown off his George Jetson costume and run away with the magic lipstick. Umm...yeah. I coughed half the night and I think my body is desperately trying to kick this sickness I've been carrying around for the past 3 weeks.

I've spent more time being sick since moving here, than I have being well. I suppose I should go to a doctor one of these days...but I have little faith in doctors. I've never found one that took the time to find out what is actually wrong with me. They usually just prescribe antibiotics and bustle on to their next patient. I'm also beginning to wonder if I maybe have allergies. If that's the case, then that causes a whole lot of mixed emotions because I have a feeling that it is the bookstore that's making me sick with its 2 chickens, 2 cockatiels, 2 rats, a lovebird, a dove, a ferret, a chinchilla, and 3 cats. hmmm...do ya think? But if that's the case, then what?

Needless to say, I slept hard this morning and woke up groggy. Two cups of coffee later and I am swimming my way to the surface. It is the first day of the next 12 weeks of Finding Water and I found myself dragging my feet to the couch, journal in hand, moving slowly and with reluctance towards writing morning pages. I think if finally dawned on me what I was getting myself into. But all it took to get me past my lack of enthusiasm, was sitting down and starting to write. I immediately felt better and am honestly looking forward to this.

Last night I sort of had a break through with my writing. I wrote all day, but the good stuff came out in all of two minutes. It might be soon to say, but I can see my writing evolving into something new with this. My body feels beaten, but my mind feels more settled than it has in some time. I am sitting with an idea...letting it incubate. It has been a long time since I've sat down in front of my computer with the intention of "playing" with words. It causes me to look forward to every little chance I get to write. And, my god, it is a refreshing feeling. I've needed that. More than anything.

9 comments:

Kristine said...

Happy Saturday. I hope the day goes well. The creative process with your writing sounds exciting. It gives me that feeling I had as a little kid waiting for Christmas morning - that excited anticipation of what is to come. I know there are good things to come.

donna said...

Aw, sweetie, hope you feel better soon...

I found "Emergen-C" at the health food store (Henry's) to be great for restoring my immune system. And zinc. And lots of sleep. But, I'm ending up on antibiotics anyway, for a rather stubborn facial infection - perioral dermatitis. Apparently related to anemia, which is from goodness knows what yet. So now I'm trying something called hemaplex from the health food store to get more iron in my system, which is awesome stuff and making me feel way better. Chicken soup is really good, too.

It's always tough when you move to get used to a new set of allergens and germs and stuff.

Thanks for setting up the Finding Water group - If ind a nice post on Time Goes By today that I sent a link for about two artists brothers in their 80s doing their first art show together. Pretty cool perseverance there.

Feel better....

Amber said...

Ug. The sickies. *raspberry*

I hope you feel better soon. I am drinking "Airborne" every few hours to keep them away. So far so good. Lil G has been sick on and off for a month!

Maybe try a Natropath Doc?

:)

ruby said...

you know, i've never been tested for allergies either; as a huge animal lover with 2 dogs and 2 cats, i am always frightened by what they will tell me -- i mean it's not like i'll giving my animals away or anything...my parents have long suspected that i have allergies (my brothers have them)...anyway, hope you feel better soon! xo!

Vesper said...

happy to hear about your writing breakthrough! i just finished a really important, big essay....it went slow for many days, then i finished most of it in one night! :) good luck with the rest of it!

Spiky Zora Jones said...

Hello Jessie, sorry you're in the sick side, me too. I seem to be coming out of it. I am not usually sick...this is the first time in like 3 years, I think. You inspire me...babes. I shouldn't let this sickness keep me down.
You know when sunrises no longer move you and the sight of the moon hanging there in the early morning sky doesn't bring a second thought. It's time to let the artist in your heart rise.

It was warm today, in the 80s I think. The sun on my skin...was like a returning lover's caress. Very nice.

It's late here at work on a Saturday night. I am here to make sure things go well...a project in progress. I don't usually work Saturday nights but sometimes it's a fab change and very quiet. My key board is all that is making noise. Oops,I spoke too soon. I am just paged..."Toni last name"...please come to the computer room. I better get out there and see how the boys are doing.

Hope you get better real soon...later. Sorry for the gabby me.

Endment said...

Jesse
Hope you feel better soon!!!
Congratulations on the breakthrough on the writing.

Hope you are sprinkled with just the right amount of water :)

lia (art junk) said...

yeah! I'm so excited about your writing and already feeling a breakthrough. also chuckled about dragging yourself to the MP's...that's all I thought about, am I gonna wanna do those again? lol. I did them. I have a secret wish also about writing something during this journey. I will email you about it to see what you think. So happy to be with "the group" of you all again. yeah! ~Lia

lia said...

oops. forgot to mention. I'm going to blog about FW on a separate blog (I also posted in main FW comments). It's www.artjunkpages.wordpress.com

(I first did one on blogger and it drove me nuts, so it's on wordpress). I think it will be easier to find me there and focus on book topic/etc. Ok, this was a blog post...sorry...